The flashback memory of the grappler with the you can owe me one and then the sequence with the meeting with the saving and the flying – so fucking rude I tell you!!! We’re not even 30 seconds in and I’m dead.

The tears in Myka‘s eyes and how she is obviously trying to hold it all together, such a bite in her voice and then when she thought that HG could be saved it was like flicking a switch and then she was almost pleading saying “if we ever needed an artifacts magic now would be the time” and that is of course what HG thought about the death of her daughter. All this endless wonder and it couldn’t save her.

“We don’t even know if it has a downside”

Claudia says “who cares” and lists who’s died with the final name being HG. Leena sees auras or something, and I think that means she can sense emotions. Her expression when Myka finished with “even people we love” was all the proof necessary to prove what I already knew that Myka’s cold and distant “people die every day” was just a self defence mechanism. Myka had a flash of pure hope and then Artie shut it down because he doesn’t know what the watch does. That was a blow, it had to be, and so I think now she’s afraid to hope again. Also I think she wants to be responsible and also make HG’s sacrifice mean something because HG is dead and that can’t be for nothing. The only thing she can really do for HG now is ensure that she didn’t die in vain, she needs to honour that sacrifice and not waste it.

Ok well got to the credits and the line “when the warehouse was destroyed the world lost hope” was basically erm what did I just say? Obviously because the entire world isn’t dying that means it must work on some kind of sliding scale. Presumably the more despair a person feels already the worse it is and Myka definitely has reason to feel the worst out of all of them.

“Really still a surprise?” and Myka noticed all the stuff about the watch, so add on most observant even in her despair. (I love it when she is smart). In fact it is pretty textbook grief with how she is wildly alternating between flat and manic, it’s desperation in its purest form. She so wants to believe and is frightened to believe but needs to because she can’t face the idea of a world without HG.

Oh and I thought I wouldn’t have much to work with *shakes head* TOO MANY FEELS!!!

I probably should talk about the other characters at some point. Claudia agreeing to stay trapped was suitably reckless for her but still given her anger it was a risk. After all they could fail and who knows what did actually happen to her. The brotherhood trapped her in there so I’m guessing they could get her out which wasn’t going to be good for her. Artie’s preoccupation in caring about her was nice though, I’ve always liked their father daughter dynamic. Although I’m not surprised that Claudia was the one in the nightmare because she’s the one his subconscious knows has unfinished business.

Anyway back to what is really important – Bering and Wells! Myka’s matter of fact “we are running out of time and options” and then smashing that window before punching a cop just says that the bright future she wanted no longer matters. It’s self-destruction. In her grief no future without HG is worth having.

I have to confess at first I wasn’t happy that Myka wouldn’t remember HG’s sacrifice and even less happy that HG wouldn’t remember. However thinking about it, it would’ve been cruel to Myka for her to remember because how horrific and traumatic to watch the one you love die like that. Artie’s staunch defence of HG was unexpected given his antipathy for her but it was completely deserved and I hope HG does get her freedom. I’m still angry with what the Warehouse thought was acceptable to do to her – twice! (So not acceptable). Anyway Artie was right given the correct circumstances HG would sacrifice her life but I’m still pretty sure that HG didn’t do it for the warehouse because after all the warehouse blew up.

HG died for Myka but I believe that HG wants to be loyal to the warehouse because she believed in it once, back when she was the best version of herself (in her eyes anyway) before tragedy twisted her and broke her. I have to be honest personally I’m not sure that the warehouse deserves that loyalty but Myka is loyal to the warehouse and so long as that remains the case HG won’t question her own loyalty. After all above all else I reckon HG is loyal to the one person that knows her the best.

I still wish that HG could remember because I think it would restore her faith in herself BUT (and it’s a big but) I don’t think it cheapens HG’s sacrifice. It’s like an alternate timeline thing, the main players don’t remember but that doesn’t mean it didn’t happen and it doesn’t mean that it didn’t mean anything. It means what it did at the time. Plus my OTP is alive again, they undid HG’s death and I am relieved for that.