6 and 19 please and thank you. 🙂
6) what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?
The best part is generally the people I talk to online are so much nicer than the people I meet IRL. We have whatever the shared interest is as base, and we don’t really have to go beyond that so it doesn’t have to get awkward. We’re not constrained to a certain time or day. We can hold conversations with gaps over hours or days as messages go back and forth.
On a semi-regular basis I have googled wishing there was a writing group, or definitely an art group, locally I could attend to get some feedback (and give obviously, I am not just a taker). But whenever I have found something that sort of fits the bill it is always an epic disappointment. I suppose I don’t fit. I don’t know how to interact with them and I feel all wrong and so I don’t like going.
Now don’t get me wrong I have felt like that sometimes online. I have felt like I’m always the outsider, that I’m not really wanted or welcome. I know I probably try too hard. But the distance of online and the ability to only interact when spoons allow helps. I have never really found “my tribe” that people talk about. I do ache for something more, I want to share more of my projects and have someone care, but we’re all just tired aren’t we? Wishing for enthusiasm from other people is like wishing for a unicorn I think.
Which brings me to the worst part of creating online, which I suppose I have sort of gone into already – invisibility. It’s lonely if you aren’t doing the current popular thing, or if you don’t have a bestie. Screaming into the void is just normal but that doesn’t make it any easier.
19) favourite thing about the day?
The electric lights don’t have to be on and hurt my eyes? Haha. Honestly it’s weird because I have trained myself really to become a morning person (I was up at 5:30am today) but I’m not generally a huge fan of the day because other people are around. The night is safer with less chance of being bothered (although I am afraid of the dark).
Anyway in all seriousness I am going to go with the fact that in the daytime is when I get to see/speak to my mum. She’s my person. We communicate in some form almost every day, even if is just sending those animated sticker things on messenger. I know I really should have grown out of it by now, but she still does have the ability to make the world seem a bit brighter.